day post

It's day 11 of my pre-residency at my hospital of choice.

I'm tired and a little bit disappointed at how things are going. I'm not learning enough. I 'm not learning fast enough. I keep thinking I did better work as an intern. And although I can give away prescriptions I can't have orders carried out without a residents' approval.

I can't find the time to see all the patients in the ward I am assigned to. Frequent ward rotations does not allow me to follow my patient's progress.

I am tired. I come home late, change, get into bed and within minutes fall into a deep slumber. Even without an alarm I wake up at 6 in the morning.

I am not complaining. I am just wondering if this is what I really want. For the next three years of my life.